Fade Into You

Every so often, when stars align and oceans collide, I hear a song that enables my transient spirit to travel back in time.   And I don't mean metaphorically.   Last night I was driving along a coastal highway when Hope leaned in and whispered to me, "I want to hold the hand inside you. I want to take a breath that's true. I look to you and I see nothing. I look to you to see the truth." I had somewhere to be, but it didn't really matter.  Her words caressed my body even as they cut into my soul.   I wanted to say something to her, to ask her for directions on this suddenly endless road but I felt hypnotized by the pursuit of her ethereal chant, "You life your life. You go in shadows. You'll come apart and you'll go blind. Some kind of night into your darkness. Colors your eyes with what's not there."  Her dreamy murmurs took me deeper into the melancholy of the unknown and yet, I knew what she was going to say next, because I'd been there before.

Fade into you

Stranger you never knew

Fade into you

I think it's strange you never knew

A wistful cocoon tingled inside my chest.  When it opened up, the Pacific transformed into the Atlantic and I was a child once more.   I'm eight years old and she's the firecracker smile of my parents.  I'm eighteen and she's the starry eyes of Sandy a moment before kissing my lips.  I'm thirty-one, and she is the final verse,  fading...

Fade into you

Stranger you never knew

Fade into you

I think it's strange you never knew

Fade into You
by Mazzy Star
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ImKY6TZEyrI